QUENCH MY THIRST.
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wan to SERVE HARD
CCHMS : 50
brother to receive Christ
go VJC
ripples slipper
EB : 35
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Sunday, April 30, 2006
sometimes i do wonder if i am worthy of His love.
i do wonder...
but i do trust in Him, and His love
changeme.
9:06 PM
Friday, April 28, 2006
been a long week, filled with lots of stuff in btw.
pft has passed and i failed 2.4km run. bleh i will definitely do better during p.e.
anyway, mid yrs have started and life is gonna be even more hectic. lots of stuff are gonna be out of line and lots of thing are gonna be neglected. gah. i dun wanna neglect God's ministry. gonna do all i can, by God's strength, to remain strong and ever faithful, so as to serve Him the best that i can.
i wanna go for CAMP!!!!!!!!!
oh man oh man oh man... God, pls let me go!!!
lots of stuff in life, but wanna forever remember that God is ALWAYS with me. through EVERYTHING.
i may be flawed, but i know that God is flawless. i will trust in Him and His ways.
THE STAND.
amen. God bless.
changeme.
11:02 PM
Friday, April 21, 2006
this is mad.bleh
going to go for first svc for the next few months. bleh. very upsetting. haix.
God bless
changeme.
11:11 PM
i have too much stuff in my phone.
too many words.
books & authors:
findyour fit
linda chaikin
catherine palmer
a child of the king
cynthia davis
frank pereitti
sovereign stone
anthony horowitz
laurell k hamilton
john c.wright
end times-john walvoord
secrets of a freelance writer- robert bly
the prodigal project
IBSN code:
3853232078 ecd000207
dance:
1.standard discipline:waltz, tango, viennise waltz, foxtrot, quickstep
2.latin:samba, cha cha cha, rhumba, paso doble, jive
haha. that's all!
God bless
changeme.
3:14 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
my com is gone and my Internet is down, so pls email or msg me anything that i need to know. if you do email me, pls sms me to let me know. i'll try to read my emails asap.
i desperately need prayers for camp. i really want to go for the june camp. my dad is not allowing me to go but i am waiting on God for a miracle. pray for my dad, for God to drain the bitterness out of him. haix.
parents day coming up, i really wanna bring my mom to church. pray for it too.
praying for patience to wait on God, to trust His plan, to not doubt His promises, to continue praying for miracles even though i may be disappointed cos its not His plan. i need to wait on Him, to love Him desperately. wanna hear His voice in my life. waiting on God.
have faith, have trust and have love for Him.
i need prayer.
i wanna experience hope in God.
wanna experience joy, love and all that from God.
give me a touch from heaven
let me be drenched in grace,
drenched in the Spirit.
praying for a touch from You.
fill me and refresh me.
replenish and give me strength.
in Jesus' name,
Amen
changeme.
2:07 PM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
today is easter. 2000 plus yrs ago, victory had been claimed. wow.
lots of things happening this wk. family, sch work, friendships, and other's well being. i am feeling anxious and worried abt all of them. i kept thinking of who could i pour out such a great burden to. joy? dennis? pearly has enough to worry abt, so i din even consider telling her. then i thought of the burdens dennis and joy had to carry, and couldn't bear to tell them abt my concerns. so i was thinking, who can i tell? i brooded over it for a long time, unable to think of anyone, until someone came to my mind.
GOD.
God, who paid for all the burdens we carry through His blood. God, who loves all of His children unconditionally. God, it is Him who i can confide in, no matter what the issue is.
WOW.
i was blown away by Him and His greatness, His love, His grace, His mercy. He will be there for us, always. matthew 28:20. He can take all our burdens and He has a solution for all of them. our burdens will never bog Him down, for He is all-powerful.
He died and rose again.
thank You so much. romans 5:8. though i was unworthy, You still died for me.
from this moment on, all i do, shall be for Your glory. forgive any mistakes i make. i thank You for Your forgiveness and Your grace. lead me and guide me, ALL of my days. Thy will, not mine, be done in my life.
i will trust in YOU, always.
amen. Yes, God.
changeme.
7:10 PM
imperfect ppl do things that fall short of God' glory. they love below the standard of God's perfect love. they hurt you, they belittle you, they say that you are a gone case, they say that they are unlucky to have u as their daughter, friend, sister..
but we, as those who know God, as those who have God's love filling our hearts, must transcend beyond this low standard. we should meet up to the standard of God's love, and be able to love all people despite them being unlovely, being bitter, being hateful, hurtful. we can't live at their standard, or we will never grow more in God if we continue to be consumed by the bitterness and hatred of this world. we must transcend the world's standard of love.
i want to love ALL ppl, even if they hurt me or belittle me, or do anything to me. cos they do not have God's love filling their hearts. i want to forgive them. if those who know God, but do not have God's love filling their hearts, i pray that they will come to be filled by God's love and will not be bitter abt what God had called them to do.
Thy will be done. it's my life motto, my one desire.
God, may Your will be done in my life.
i submit entirely to You.
guide me and lead me all of my days.
Amen!
changeme.
4:43 PM
Saturday, April 15, 2006
we are all in love with Jesus.
that's why we sing so much.
thats SO true!!!! ahh..
lots of things not going right. lots of things happening all ard. i can't do it on my own. but i know that God will help me. God will handle it all. i am going to hand it all to him and pray that He will solve it all. YES AND AMEN!!! haha.
so hand all ur problems to HIM. He will handle it. all the hwk, all the exams, all the worries, all the unhappiness, all the helplessness... i know that He has a solution to all of it. yes!
Thy will be done. Thy will be done.
gonna give my all to Him.
serve to the end.
i will worship Him with all my might, & i know that He will replenish my strength. He will guide me thru. i have full faith that i will come out of this whole ordeal with many great testimonies.
i will give my all to You. You are my Jehovah Jireh.
Amen.
changeme.
10:48 PM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
ytd couldn't get over the habit of bloggin, so in the absence of a com, i wrote on paper. not gonna bother to typr it out. strange that how blogging has become a habit. life w/o msn feels really weird, hoping to get my com back real soon. i wan to transfer songs into my phone. bleh.
today was sorta messed up. all the lessons like having tests. mrs ho din come so went to physics lab to do stuff, teacher not present. together w/ the hong kong exchange students. lots of stuff not conducive to learning abt what we do in sch. bleh, that's why feel so weird. got to know karen. she was really cool la. haha. real fun. too bad i wun be going to hk in june. oh well.
determined to bring someone on sat. sermon will be cool. ahh! gonna bring a junior.
metamorphosis. praying for jac to be able to come. thank God for grace who will be going and mickey mouse who i hope will be going. oh manx.
praying for camp, mom, bro, mid yr.
praying that sports meet tmr will be of fair weaher, not too deary, nor too sunny. God can make it possible.
can't wait for easter. its gonna be so freaking EXCITING. ahh!
john 11:24-25. woohoo
pray for God to be close, 24/7.
God bless.
changeme.
10:24 PM
Monday, April 10, 2006
woah, God just did an unexpected twist on what i had judged on. bleh. really sorry for judging. God really showed that what He looked out for was the heart, not the action. really wanna learn to see the heart too, dun wanna judge at all. i really wanna grow so much more in God.
woohoo, today jac received Holy Spirit. yay! really thank God so much for her faithfulness. and the others, dun give up. you'll defnitely be in our prayers. yup. jia you! God is waiting to give this to you.
really thank God for all the ppl in my life. wow.
gah, my dad took away my com. bleh, probably can't do much these few days. using my dad's com to blog now. bleh. gonna pray for it to be returned to it to me soon. yup. prayer works!
gonna need to study hard for midyr. bleh. its gonna be tough but i am sure that i can overcome it. with God, anything is possible.
really impacted by God's twist today. God really does unexpected things. yep. God is good.
AMEN!
changeme.
9:51 PM
i am not gonna lose ur friendship. i am sorry for anything i have done to hurt you, anything wrong to you. i still wanna be ur friend. i promise not to force anything upon you.
just watched gospel of judas on national geographic. bleh, its so weird and untrue. gah. it wasted 2 hrs of my life? anyway i was praying for God to guard my heart above all else.. so as not to be affected by lies and to be sure of the truth. my dad was bugging me again. bleh, blantant prosecution. i pray that it does not affect my brother.
today was a relaxing day. slacked alot again. nxt wk is coing up and mid yrs are drawing closer again.. haix, so fast. time does fly. gonna do well this time, for God, thru God. My parents definitely won't allow me to go for camp if i came back w/ Cs and Ds, gonna score as many As as possible... but its easter this wk, and it means so much, so its definitely not a time to forget abt ppl.. bring ppl to easter svc.. anyone interested? can msg me.. or even tag my board...
i know that God will honour and God will heal all wounds. guard the heart above ALL.. i am gonna do exactly that..
i trust in You. God will heal.
amen and God bless.
changeme.
12:10 AM
Saturday, April 08, 2006
wow. just finished watching The Passion Of The Christ. beautiful, heartbreakingly beautiful. breath taking. i definitely love the last scene, the taste, the tangible taste of sweet victory. wow. its so great, so wonderously great is God's love. AMEN!
thank God for bernard who lent it to me.
had a fulfilling day. started off with meeting in oceania room. definitely learnt something. its great, to be learning so much abt the KOG, for the KOG. then went ard, met tino and xiao amanda. don't be so upset, dearest bro. it WILL be alright. then "fetched" swee hong and michelle. then grace called to say she was at mrt. ahh.was super hungry and there was no time left so shern and chias went to pick her up. thank God for both sisters. eat quickly, and ran up. bleh, found out prayer meet was gonna start later.
went in for prayer meet. was cool. first time in a few wks. yay! then remembered abt amanda tan. bleh, sorry gal! thank God for her, for she came faithfully even though i din answer her calls. thank God for chessia who came! P&W was great, and the time of worship, i felt God's presence really touched me. sermon was even cooler. really learnt alot. altar call came and PRAISE GOD!!!! there were many who desired to receive Christ. AMEN!! this shows that PASSION FOR GOD is NOT YET DONE. wow.
went to gelare straight w/ the unit. had fun. haha. was great just sitting there and talking. fellowshipping is indeed great. ate some stuff and left. we went our ways and i went w/ joy and michelle. haha. went to ate some things at the basement. hah. tasty. we went back to starhub. then sat ard and then we left. reached home ard 9.
thank GOD! my dad did not scold me much. prayer WORKS!!! yay!
celebrated mom's bday. may God really bless her in the area of work, to be less stressed. bless her in the area of health, to be healthy. i really yearn to see her come on parents' day. YES and AMEN, i believe she will open up her heart to GOD. God is the God of IMPOSSIBLEs.
need prayer for camp. i will go and i will experience.
prayer for cchms. by the end of next wk, i will have brought someone to God. passion is not at the end. its easter, it means so much. i WILL bring someone.
thank God for ALL that HE's done......
AMEN!
changeme.
11:35 PM
Friday, April 07, 2006
its my last yr in cchms.
i know i'll cry.
i know i'll cry when EB1 is going to be separated.
when all of us are going to be spilted up into different districts,
when the rest of the younger sisters will be left behind.
when i have to change my shepherd,
when i have to entrust my sheep to someone else.
when we'll not see each other everyday,
when we aren't up to date about each other's life.
i know i'll cry.
i'll miss all my dearest sisters,
every single one of you,
for all of you have taken a portion of my heart w/ you.
it's a time for rejoicing but also a time of mourning.
some things may be lost,
but i believe there will be gains as well.
i only wish i din have to lose all of you.
i wish to see all of you on sat, 1st/2nd svc.
but i know we'll meet at the end of the race.
and i'll see you there, my friends.
forever bound as sisters.
just felt like writing some prose i guess.
ben's leaving vry soon.
oh manx.. i hope that everything will not be waivered.
yup. i love MARCOM!!!
today had a pretty ok day.
went home early.
then went out to buy cake, for mom.
met some brothers,
got roped it for medic in camp but also not vry confirmed.
stayed in life bkshop for an hr plus again.
bleh. i really can't make up my mind on what to buy..
tml gonna be a fun filled day.
yep. i love saturdays!! woohoo!!!
really praying for camp.
i really want to go.
its really a great time to spend w/ sisters.
by faith, i'll be there.
bleh, why am i writing in poem style again? oh manx, this is so weird. haha. but sometimes fun.
i am really worried. you always say u have a commitment but do u know ur priorities? i know it's hard, but did anyone say a Christian's walk is easy? a bed of roses? its going to be tough, but through God we can be tougher. why do u also give up so easily? why don't you place your trust in Him? why do you always say such disheartening things? why do you not commit first and foremost to God? why isn't He the centre of your life? why do u hang onto worldly things? why do you not give up everything for Him alone? why do you not choose God? why choose something else? i told everyone in the beginning of the year that if i backslide, i give all my dearest sisters, permission to slap me. will you let me? will you let me scold you and rebuke you and tell you that u are falling away already? i can't help but love you forever, because you are my dearest sister. it hurts so much to see you like this. i pray that all will be resolved. i have faith in God.
pray for camp. i really need to go and encounter. praying to experience so much more this camp. its going to be great.
pray for my brother.
i believe that he'll come to know God by June.
pray for newbies.
open hearts receive the most.
pray for my mom.
its HER birthday today! happy birthday!!!
pray for me.
i need guidance, i need a direction.
in jesus' name,
AMEN!!!
changeme.
10:29 PM
Thursday, April 06, 2006
ok. this is mad.
ahh the whole thing is so maddening
this is really crazy & i really don't know what to do
why are there no impactful stuff?
blehx. this is really bad.
but no matter wat, i will forever love my ministry.
yay!! anyone interested in joining?
marcom!!!
had cg. was fun. was cool.
i realise that i really wanna commit everything i have to the KOG.
wow. just this peace and assurance in me
that's so cool.
no matter what, i m gonna stand by my faith, yay!
tmr got physics test. and i still haven studied at all.
this is crazy.
how am i going to pass?
BY FAITH.
yay! PRAISE GOD!
ENCOUNTER!!!!!
oh manx. i really nid to start praying for it.
i wanna go!!! wanna pay $90!!!!
yes and AMEN!
i will go and i will have no hitches in anything that has to do w/ camp.
parent's consent, money.
ALL will be SMOOTH SAILING.
in JESUS' name.
AMEN!!!!!
oh manx. i love all my new sisters.
all of them so faithful and so eager to learn.
WOW.
i love them for being so teachable.
Thank GOD!!!
realised that we can't solve all problems by ourselves.
God bless.
changeme.
9:26 PM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
this is crazy manx.
i dunno what is going on. everything is like so messed up and so confusing. just when i thought i had God's plan in mind, He comes ard and make me confused again. gah.
its so complicated and so confusing. i can't really see the big picture. i only see the small part and pray that the outcome will be the way i want it. but ultimately its God's plan. so i'll just haf to follow Him where He leads.
i wish life wasn't so complicating.
i wish life was much easier than this, easier than having to go to sch and endure it all.
can i stay at home all day and read?
i really have no wish to go out there and repeat my routine day in day out.
its so mundane. so meaningless.
haix, i wish, but it isn't reality.
would it be cool if i kept a quotes journal?
dunno.
really pray for God' guidance.
God bless
changeme.
10:41 PM
thanks for ur trust
i will love you forever and always. come what may, no matter what.
i will see you thru this, i will be with you EACH and EVERY step.
Thank God for you.
Amen.
changeme.
3:39 PM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
oh manx, this is CRAZY.
i have fever at 38 degrees plus.
this is so BAD.
ahh!!! so many ppl are sick.
i know cat is sick,
da dennis also sick.
see so many ppl sick all ard me.
what is going on????
Refiner's fire alright..
but i am really gonna trust in God and know that HE'll heal all of us in His own time.
feeling so weak and vulnerable.
i hope to have a breakthrough thru this.
Trust in the LORD,
YES and AMEN!!
changeme.
9:04 PM
Monday, April 03, 2006
nothing you can do, could make Him love you more
nothing you have done, can make Him close the door.
WOW. i love the song "So You Would Come"
thank God for aloysius who helped me burn the dvd.
love this song really alot.
this IS the love of God, for all His children.
oh manx
had a freaking weird out day.
felt funny all day.
super humid manx.
lots of things occurred.
one thing i learnt though, is you must forgive no matter what. especially if they are your brothers or sisters. don't u know how much they depend on you? they need you to say, "its okay, I am here FOR you." i wanna be there for you, my dearest sis. it's okay, i am here FOR you.
i remember yu qian's post in the past.
"the teacher left/died... the class changed and was never the same.."
must something drastic happen before we can realise what is in front of us? mus we curse and shout f-words all over the place when everything remains the same? why don't u treasure what is in front of you? why must u hurt others and regret it only when something drastic occurs?"is she dead?"
"she brought it on herself."
"it's her fault."
what the freaking problem with all of you? she isn't just some other ppl, she is your SISTER!!!!! do u still remember that? don't you remember that we are all flawed? i don't understand you guys... but know this, she is my SISTER and i CARE VERY MUCH for her. what abt u?
i really don't care if any of you read this. this is how i feel.
haha. on a lighter note camp reg. form is out on yhope website.
ahh.
this time is at PGP. haix. i wanna stay at Kent Ridge. don't think will have the chance le. now also have to get parents to sign. ahix. and maybe even pay. really pray that can. cos i really sincerely wanna go. by faith, i'll be able to participate fully in this camp. by FAITH.
rained like mad today. sorta like God's assurance. it's still pouring, He says, there is still harvest.
not gonna stop now, cos we have to grow or we'll be stagnant and it'll be difficult to gear up again.
my bro. oh manx. ireally hope to see him come know God by JUNE. maybe even come church camp w/ me. YES and AMEN! by God's works, it IS POSSIBLE.
prayer requests:
.able to go camp w/ no hassle
.brother coming to know God by JUNE
.chessia to have strength & courage thru God
.pearly to be not overwhelmed by band
.newbies to be open to God's works
God bless.
changeme.
7:31 PM
jus received news that amath test is on wed.
PRAISE GOD.
He has proven to be so real in my life.
even when we are so unfaithful, You still chose to display ur faith in me
Thank YOU.
its really GREAT having YOU in my life
GOD, i am so amazed by Your works.
I'll stand by YOU, all of my days.
to the end of my life, and even beyond that.
a life WITHOUT You would be of NO MEANING.
thank You, for sacrificing so much
thank You, for Your perfect and wondrous love.
Amen.
changeme.
1:02 AM
really haven do anything today
all the hwk and tests to study for. dead.
all not done
thank God bio was postponed.
indeed, God is faithful
yes and amen.
God bless
changeme.
12:47 AM
thank God that EB1 met their goal of 15!!!
Saturday, April 01, 2006
oh manx. i look at the number and i felt so disappointed. i couldn't help but feel the tears well up in me.
689
i felt so disappointed, betrayed? i had hope that we would really reach it.
but God is faithful....
woot!!! we got 185 converts!!!!
wow.
this means that if we retain ALL of them, we'll definitely BREAK 750!!!!
oh manx, this is like the coolest thing in the whole wide world!!!!
Romans 8:31
if God is FOR us, WHO CAN BE AGAINST US???
wow. tat was a super cool meeting. disappointed but yet filled with so much, so much HOPE.
oh manx. today's meeting was super duper cool. and shern went up to share testimony, she took my phone up stage. she kept it for like dunno how long. oh manx, wat a meaningful april fool's joke. she used it to write points abt her growth in God. woohoo!!!
hah.
falling deeper and deeper in love with You.
and that EB hit 31 for svc!!!
enjoyed the whole meet. and at the end of it, sharlene announced that EAST finally found an RC. woohoo!!!
$1,100 for
fully furnished
near mrt
fully aircon
bigger living room
plus an extra balcony!!!!
PRAISE GOD.
there are so many great testimonies today!!!! so AMAZED by all of them!
oh manx, i am fully healed by God. yay!
plus another thing.
passion celebration ended pretty late, so i was super worried. i decided to take a taxi home. and when i reached home, my parents weren't home yet.
i din wanna leave early cos i wanted to stay for the whole thing, i din wanna go. i took a step of faith that God will give me what i deserve.
THANK GOD!!!!!!! oh manx!!!!
thank God for joy and lestari who prayed for me and provided for me.
thank God for being so faithful.
Church Camp is COMING!!!!
7-10 June.
Experience a SPIRIT FILLED youth.
woah
registration starts 8th April.
OH MANX! SO EXCITED!
gonna head to 1000!!!! nothing can stop us!!!
this is going to bring us even one more step closer to God and His will.
YES!!!
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training ... we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 1 Corinthians 9: 24-25 (NIV)
a race to eternity.
a crown that will last forever.
yea man!
something negative: i will not let U stop me frm serving God. No way. if its meant to be, it'll be. but now, its God. we are brothers and sisters, fellow servants. no more, no less. Yes and Amen!
prayer requests:
1.continue to SOW in cchms. wan more growth!
2.the newbies to open their hearts to learn.
3.pearly to not be stressed by band.
4.for me to be focused on God.
5.my parents' hearts to be soften.
6.my bro to receive Christ by this JUNE.
7.to be USED by God.
the end of passion month is NOT the end of PASSION for God.
we will still continue to serve hard.
its a race till eternity.
GOD IS MOVING
i will serve You all of my days.
AMEN!!!
changeme.
11:58 PM
woohoo!
i am HEALED.
by GOD.
everyone say with me:
GOD HEALS!!!
yay. i feel so much better now. and i am left with only a hint of sore throat.
PRAISE GOD!!
thank God for joy who prayed for me, and anyone else who did too.
yay!!!!
oh man, i dun think will be meeting my goal. but anyway, today shern has 2 visitors. pray that they'll be responsive and will come to open up their heart to God. yay!!!
thank you, God, for everything.
can i still meet my goal?
changeme.
7:47 AM